IT’S JUST A SEASON
My mantra of the last few months is “It’s just a season”. It’s just a moment. It’s just a short time.
MS has a way of reminding me of how quickly seasons shift and how fragile the moments in between can be. One moment you’re healthy and feeling 100%, the next you’re smacked with the reminder of your chronic illness and your super woman cape doesn’t fly quite as freely.
Seasons of Rest… and Restlessness. -Employment… and Unemployment. -Financial freedom… and Financial Check Points. -Unquestioned Health & Wellness… and doubts you’ll ever feel yourself again. -Joy… and hurt. -Love… and Loss
The seasons shift without warning and without asking. They move slowly and then all at once, like falling asleep. In the seasons of life that aren’t big and bold and loud and lavish and feast filled… my heart can struggle to appreciate those more quite moment.
My MS lately is (beautifully) in a season of peace. My MS is in all-time low of relapses and lesions. I am feeling better now (MS-wise) than I did when I was diagnosed 4.5 years ago. My brain and spine are clear. On a scale of 1 - 100, my MS is at a level 1. My mind has ownership and appreciation and conviction and confidence in my body again. The connection that felt broken and lost for so long has settled back into itself again. At (almost) 34… I move differently than I did at 29. It aches and hurts and needs from things that age brings (if you’re lucky).
My MS’ed up journey continues its season of peace. It’s season of homeostasis. Its season of strength.
Meanwhile my career is in a season of change, steps in new directions, a whole new frontier. My health insurance is with a new company so that has my wallet and heart wondering what sort of coverage and in-network limitations may be ahead this year. My daughter is growing so quickly and I just want to be able to keep up with her. My marriage is stronger than ever. Our home is cooled and warmed with the shifts in the DC air.
Whatever you do…. Do it with a joyful heart and always CHOOSE happiness. - Margs
It’s just a season.
Wherever you are in life, try to appreciate the season. Breath in the air. Be it warm, cold, sweet, humid, rainy, or dry… it will pass. The season will shift. The season will pass. Just try not to wish it away.
Charlotte Raejole